So, I’ve been watching A LOT of ‘Made’ recently…(feel free to judge)
Anyways, I know this blog is about being gorgeous at any size. But I’ve decided to talk about inner strength today.
Watching this show kind of bothers me (but I can’t look away!!) It seems like the main point of every episode is that these kids want to change themselves in order to be accepted per the social norms of high-school. Don’t get me wrong, I completely understand that growing pains suck ass (figuratively and literally!) Being a teenager is basically the shittiest thing most young people have to experience and all you can do is just suffer through it and make the best out of it. When I think about it though, I feel like going through those experiences is one of the great things about growing up. I cant imagine what I would be like if I hadn’t of gone through the experiences I did during that time.
I won’t lie to you. I had a good childhood. But I did go through something during school that affected me off and on long past high school. When I was in the 9th grade one of the girls on my dance team decided that she didn’t like me anymore so she told a lie about me at the lunch table so that when I showed up to sit down everyone refused to talk to me and wouldn’t let me sit down. (I know that doesn’t sound like much, but it was mortifying.) I stood there holding my tray trying to sit down while 10+ people including the ones who I thought were my best friends ingnored me and closed in the holes so there wouldn’t be a place for me to sit. I quickly realized that I had been ostracised. Confused and hurt, I threw my food away and went and cried in the bathroom for the duration of lunch. Afterwards I went home with “stomach cramps”. I missed the next few days as well because I convinced my mom I had the flu. I couldn’t face going back there and seeing those people. Apparently a rumor went around that I had gone home and killed myself…thank God that wasn’t the case. When I got back to school, a few of the girls apologized, but most pretended like it had never happened. Two of the girls who apologized are some of my bests friend to this day. I was even the Maid of Honor at one’s wedding.
Anyways, for the longest time that event plagued me because everytime I got close to a friend, I would feel like they were going to do the same thing to me. For a long time I had an insecurity about being left out of things. When my two best friends would do something without me, even if I wasn’t in town, I would get really upset about it. This past year I finally decided to let that personal insecurity go. It helps that I have a sixth sense about people and I can generally tell the good ones from the bad ones.
If I had to do it all over again with the choice to avoid that pain back in 9th grade or not, I’d have to say I’d do everything the exact same way. I think changing yourself to fit in, is basically robbing you of the expereinces that make you who you are. That experience changed my life for the better because it made me strong within myself. I learned that I didn’t need (or want) to be people around who didn’t genuinely care about me. Without that experience, I don’t think I would be the person that I am today, and I certainly wouldn’t have the lasting friendships that I do. :-)
Just wanted to share! Love you all!!
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for what some of us find beautiful, other’s find disturbing, it doesn’t matter what the others think - everybody’s beautiful in their own way.
(Source: deepthroatmebitch)
Beauty Is…
Waking up with your hair in disarray and face clean of make up. The real you.
Somedays I hate make-up and I wish the world didn’t force girls to believe they need it to be beautiful…
(Source: lmboehle)
Cross the line if you have confidence in yourself, and think everyone should because everyone is beautiful. :)
(Source: crosstheline, via ohwowallison)
belle toute // all are beautiful
“Well, basically, anything French sounds good. But seriously, belle toute roughly translates into “all beautiful”. Or more specifically, all women are beautiful, loved, and adored: all shapes, all sizes …all lovely!”
this is an excerpt I grabbed from my friend’s blog, (although it is not a tumblr blog, it is fantastic nontheless!)
Please check it out! In addition to being one of the most beautiful people I know, her blog has some mad awesome fashion tips!!
